It is now my last hour in Lesotho, and I am finding it so hard to leave this wonderful place without knowing for sure if or when I will be back... This trip has been such a huge blessing, and I find that my heart aches at the thought of going. I just have to trust that if it is God's will for me to return, that He will open the right doors, and if it is not His will, then I will learn and grow from my all too short time here and keep this experience close to my heart until I meet my new found friends again in this life or the next...
As sad as I am to go, the blow is slightly softened because my next destination is not Chicago... I am surprising some of my favorite people in Ireland :o) I had a free flight home from Dublin, and it cost the same to fly from Chicago-Johannesburg-Dublin as it did to fly from Chicago-Johannesburg-Chicago... so SJ and I are headed to Dublin, and only a handful of people know that she is coming and no one (other than SJ's parents) know that I am arriving with her. Best surprise EVER. It has been immensely hard to keep this a secret, and I will not be able to post this until we have arrived and said our hello's... I at least have this little long weekend adventure to look forward to.
Yesterday was very tough; I had a hard time saying good-bye to all of the kids that I have gotten to know and love in such a short time. I also met with M'e Hlumpo one last time, and she cried as we said good-bye, which of course left me in bits. Not only did it darn near break my heart to say good-bye to the children, but it has been equally hard to say goodbye to the other missionaries here at the complex... They have been such a joy to live with, and they have been so open to sharing their ministries, and themselves, with me. Yet another huge blessing. I will miss them more than they know. I find that I do this often- go somewhere and fall so utterly in love with the people and places that it is nearly impossible to leave... but then I am still so invested in my life in Chicago, Ireland, and now Lesotho, that no matter where I end up I always end up missing a whole lot of people. At least I can take comfort that we will all be together when this world passes away. Until then, I will trust that God will help me to maintain the relationships that I have built here and continue to use them to grow and stretch me.
Please be praying for my travel in these next few days, and pray that I will have a peace about leaving here... Also that God will guide my steps and make it clear if and when I will return to Lesotho. God Bless, and thank you for your continued prayers.
"Why are you so downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God,
for I will praise Him,
My Savior and my God."
~Psalm 42:5